Monday, December 15, 2008

so funny...

Friday, December 05, 2008

it's that time of year....

Well it's that time of year again... The stockings hung over the fireplace, cinnamon apple cider warmed over a hot stove, the smell of evergreen filling your house from the christmas tree that is nestled in a cozy corner, lit up just bright enough so you can read your bible next to it at night.... yep it's that time of year.

It's the time of year to CELEBRATE CHRIST! SALVATION! REDEMPTION! Our debt has been paid - You who were once far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ (Ephesians 2:13)!


We are ready to celebrate with you guys this Saturday night. Our cd is out, and we want to spend a night with you to celebrate our great Savior King - not the release of a cd - moreso the blessing we have in our Savior. This will be a sweet night of corporate worship!

Come one, Come all.

Visio Dei Church - on Whitaker Mill Rd. in Raleigh. @ 7pm
google it.

Friday, November 21, 2008

random soundcheck fun....

and just in case you were, i don't play guitar yet at shows, but i'm working on it :)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

coming soon....

Sunday, October 05, 2008

smb donations...

i want to point out briefly (in case you haven't already noticed) that there is a new paypal donation link where you can support the band financially and help us get out on the road, or buy the equipment that we need for shows, or help us get health insurance - these are all good things - and God has been a faithful provider - I have just had numerous people ask for ways that they can help or if they could give financially to the band at some point, so that's why i have created that link - you will be able to find the link to donate on the band's myspace page ( or on our facebook page ( side note: as you give to "the band" (if you are so led) know that you are not giving to making our lives more comfortable - any funds you would give would go directly to spreading this music that speaks of God's resounding fame, glory, and faithfulness... both in allowing us to travel and share this music live at shows and engage with the people who come, as well as allowing us to print enough physical merchandise to provide it to larger markets to distribute across the nation and *prayerfully* overseas as well.
If you can't give and would still like to help in some way please PRAY that God will grant us His guidance and grace as we continue in sharing His message - and ask that the Lord would open up new doors for His message to go out through this music.

thanks for taking the time to read this ---
treasuring CHRIST,

if you are the owner of old band equipment that's in good condition, or if you are a part of a church that has a rarely opened closet of never used sound equipment and would like to see if any of it would be a help to us - please e-mail me at - this would be a great help to us.

new pictures

so most of you know by now if you've followed my blog at all, that i am doing music fulltime and I'm also doing photography and design pretty-much full-time as well these days..... it's been fun - i've been taking loads of pictures lately - seems to be the season for it - and i'll be taking more this week - but i posted some more photos on my design blog that i took recently of a sweet friend of mine who is getting married soon. i'd love for you to look and let me know what your favorite picture is. the blog is I also post random beautiful/inspiring things I find online on that blog - so add it (as well as this one) to your blog feeds - things are picking up these days with music and design and life - so i hope to keep you posted as life brings change and stories of God's ever-present faithfulness. :)

Sunday, September 21, 2008

A Prayer for You (and for me).

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.

May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain into joy.

May God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world, so that you can do what others claim cannot be done.


A Fransciscan Blessing

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


Friday, September 12, 2008

pat downing...

the other day pat asked me to take some pics of him for a few things he's working on - as soon as there is a site to promote i will definitely pass along the the meantime, if you are looking for a stinkin awesome electric player for any gig, he's your man...

Tuesday, September 02, 2008


Thursday, August 14, 2008

Ricky Berens gets a gold medal!!

the berens' family lived in my neighborhood and we swam together on the neighborhood swim team - except he was maybe 8 then. (when i was still swimming on that team) so weird how time flies... - anyway... I AM SO PROUD OF YOU RICKY! Congrats to you and your sweet family!

Monday, August 04, 2008

the unlimited plan

so i've been looking into phones recently - i've been looking specifically at the iphone since it will sync with my mac and offer me endless direction with it's sweet gps function and internet accessibility... i am directionally inept and with band travel and not a lot of time, my texting has increased...all this costs money. I have not decided on the phone yet but I was talking with a friend and mentioned that i need to be more disciplined with my minutes - i was speaking about the minutes in my day but she asked "are you talking about your phone?! You have unlimited minutes!" -- and i laughed and said, "no, i was talking about the minutes in my day - but hey, i could definitely use the unlimited plan on those!....hmmm...i think i need the plan with the unlimited daytime minutes and unceasing prayer" --- oh how i wish. but God in his infinite wisdom knows that i do not need that kind of plan - even though sometimes i would totally desire it - i get overwhelmed with the minutes i have. and He surely knows i need the nights rest and the new day with new mercies. Oh that he would help me to be more faithful with the few minutes He grants - that He might receive glory and honor from this foolish child. and may i realize that He gives me just enough minutes to complete the tasks He sets before me, all the direction i could ever need in His word, and unlimited access to His infinite wisdom and ever-presentness in prayer. ....i still think an iphone might be nice.

Monday, July 07, 2008

booking our way to texas

we have a show in texas on august 24, and so instead of just flying out there and back, we are booking our way out and back - if you are in between raleigh, nc and mansfield, tx, and you know of a good church or venue that would want to host a date on this hope and decay tour, let me know :) any and all help is more than appreciated. love ya'll.

Thursday, June 26, 2008


i took photos of jessie and her sweet family yesterday! - I went to college with rhett and it's been a joy to watch the Lord work in his life and grant him the best wife in the world and a sweet son - and now another one on the way! Jessie has grown to be such a precious friend to me over the years - I am so grateful to know this family! and I can't help but have a little crush on Locke (the 4 year old in the picture) I mean...for real - can anyone resist his little dimples? Can't wait to meet the new addition...
I've actually been taking a lot of pictures lately - it's been a fun season for it -- I've posted some favorites on my design blog - hope you enjoy! and if you get a chance - check out rhett's work with link - you can find their stuff at or you could just go watch my favorite video ever of theirs... the grammys.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

lock your doors.

a couple nights ago i was sitting at a stoplight near my house and a man was crossing the street in front of me - i had a strange feeling about it so i made sure my doors were locked - and as he walked he crossed in front of my car then came around to the passenger side and tried to get in my car - he started gesturing for me to let him in and began pulling on the door handle - i was so stunned for a moment as i looked at him shaking my head no and then my sense returned (this happened fairly quickly) and i ran the light i was stopped at to get away from him - i called the police and reported it so that they would be aware that he might try to get in another car - i wasn't sure what he was going to do but i was pretty shaken up about it and had a hard time sleeping (as this happened about a block from my house) ... my roommates are lovers of God and prayed for me and for him when I got home. As a girl, I have received forward upon forward warning me of "situations that could happen if a man gets in your car" and "what to do when..." - so my head flooded with stories - and I was so grateful in that moment that the Lord gave me a sinking feeling that led me to check to make sure the doors were locked. I thought through it all and wondered to myself, if he had gotten in my car and done things to me that were hurtful or scarring even, it would not make the Lord any less good. Man, that was a hard one to filter but it's so true - we are in a sinful place - so therefore we will be affected by sin - by our own and by the sin of others - and yes, God is able to protect us - but overall i have to remember that all things are under His control - and He is good. This is not heaven - I can not and should not expect to live here unaffected by the sin of the world... Paul was in prison - Stephen was stoned - Jim Elliot was killed - there are people throughout the Word of God and in the history of Christian martyrs who understood that these present trials do not make our God any less good. They just prove the depravity of this world and give us opportunity upon opportunity to show the world that there is a hope in this darkness - things to be seen their eyes have never beheld - things to hear their ears are deafened to --- may we know His WORD, that we may be ready at all times to point to the light in the darkness...
but of course if i can be of any service to anyone reading this now - i'd say pray daily - read His Word - and don't forget to lock your doors.

final decision... i was sort of biased to the hairless one of the last post but mike said it looked like an alien and taylor said a drag queen and james said a bald girl or a dude with fake eyelashes.... i was not expecting that - so then we added hair but lost some of the energy that the first had - so is the final - a happy medium that still has the energy and dynamic composition of the first with the necessary hair of the second :) hope you guys are all happy and will all buy one. :) there are 2 more designs that will be releasing soon - these will be available for purchase soon - through a newly designed website (if i can get it done in time....if not, they will be for purchase here and linked to paypal...either way i'll let you know) now i just have to decide final colors... maybe i'll just have to print two versions.... :)

which one?


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

so... i kinda think this is funny.

Saturday, June 14, 2008


i need to be reminded of the power of prayer daily - i am so inclined to believe that it just makes me feel better "handing things off to God" when in reality prayer is so much more. i'd love to hear your thoughts or a time when the Lord has answered your prayers to just remind me of His faithfulness and to encourage all of us. Please comment. Can't wait.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

With May 27th street date around the corner, the debut album currently has three Top 20 singles in multiple formats

(NASHVILLE, TENN.) -- Underground Sound, Volume One, the first project in a new CD series that will introduce Christian music fans to the hottest up-and-coming acts in Christian music today, will be released by NuSpring Records on May 27, 2008, distributed by EMI-CMG. With the street date still a few weeks away, the album is achieving unprecedented radio success with three Top 20 singles in multiple formats, with two more waiting in the wings.

"Carl Cartee's 'Trust In You' is fast becoming a hit at Soft AC/Inspirational radio!" says radio promoter Mark Giles at Hit Radio Promo. "Currently 10 on the CRW Inspo chart, listeners are voting yes, yes, YES!"

In addition to Carl Cartee's Top 10 hit, Paul Alan's "To Bring You Back" is currently in the Top 15 on the CRW and R&R CHR Chart, and the Jonny Diaz single "Hold Me" is resting in the Top 20 on the CRW Indie Chart. In addition to these early successes, Jeff Johnson Band's "Ruin Me" is currently the top new and active song on the R&R AC Monitored chart, and should debut in the Top 30 of the AC Chart next week. "Something Wrong" from Separated is also getting attention from Christian rock programmers, and is only a few spins away from debuting on the R&R Rock Chart.

Other artists featured on Underground Sound, Volume One are Last Year Portrait, Maria Long, The Wrecking, Justin Cofield Band, Foolish Things, 1 Life, Shelly Moore Band, The Ride, Abbi Walker and Jessica McLean. Additional radio singles from the project are planned for summer and fall.

Executive Producer Paul Wright III (who was also instrumental in launching the popular WOW Gospel series) created the Underground Sound brand for the purpose of introducing the "Top 15 songs by the Top 15 artists" that are sure to be tomorrow's biggest and best artists in the Christian music genre. The producers started with over 1500 artists and narrowed the list down to the top 15 songs that represent the absolute best independent Christian artists in music today. All of the artists are full-time musicians, with extensive fan bases. Combined, they have in excess of more than 2.7 million song plays on their MySpace pages.

An aggressive marketing campaign is in place, including extensive online promotions and partnerships as well as a nationwide television promotion that will have most of the project's artists performing on local television morning programs in each of their hometowns during the week of the album's release.

NuSpring Records is a Nashville-based record company, founded in 2007 by industry veteran Paul Wright III. NuSpring's artist roster includes Lamar Campbell, Daryl Coley, Ricky Dillard, Joe Pace, Isaac Simpson, Leesa Jordan, Image and The Classic Imperials.

Thursday, May 15, 2008


So, a concert I was supposed to do a while back around the Campbell University area didn't go so well. I completely lost my voice before the concert - I went to the doctor and if I'm remembering correctly, I had a mix of laryngitis and strep. But it was too late to cancel the show so the doc gave me this numbing stuff that I was supposed to inject with a dropper into my throat....

We did the concert but had to end early. I think I was only able to attempt 3 songs - I already knew we weren't going to be able to do a full set so I called Jacob Taylor to open up and split the set - HE ROCKED IT - just him and his guitar but I loved the sound - I didn't get any pics of him but definitely buy his stuff - it has been such a blessing to me.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

"To Be Known Is To Be Loved
and To Be Loved Is To Be Known."
[the woman at the well]
John 4:1-26

nashville=overrated :)

So the trip to nashville wasn't as bad as my blog post title might suggest, but God totally used it to teach me so much. I got to stop halfway at a friend's house in the mountains of NC on the way up and on the way back. It's beautiful there. On the way up I went to a small church where I was surrounded by people that didn't know me but welcomed me without reservation. The next few days I spent in Nashville, I was also surrounded by believers, and technically had more in common with them as we serve the Lord together in the same industry. But there, it felt as though people wondered, "Why should I know you...what makes you worth my time" - my answer would of course be the Lord is who makes me worthy - I have no worth to speak of that should make you turn your head... He has allowed me to be here - and He is good. I got a lot of very funny "you're an idiot" looks, when I told people there that I didn't actually know that this was GMA week - I was out here because I put an ad on craigslist. haha. Most people seemed to like my craigslist idea though - even though they thought it was funny.
SO glad I didn't actually go to Nashville to be a part of that GMA week - I do believe that God totally wanted me to be there at that time in His sovereignty - I did meet some nice people and got to hang out with Jeff Johnson (the guy who sang some background vocals on our last cd) a bit, who I never see since he lives in Dallas. So overall it was a really fun trip, but I'd say the Lord brought me back, appreciating the community he surrounds me with more than ever. It was just so overwhelmingly apparent that the music industry, although filled with believers, is a business. It is not the church. I'm so grateful I don't have to prove my worth to the people of God - (I have none :)) - and I'm grateful to those in the small town church that helped me to see that picture so clearly.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

nashville again...

hey guys - i'm in nashville again - i put an ad on craigslist for booking help and received several credible responses. so i came out here to meet with the people that responded - it was semi-convenient b/c we had an event in western nc over the past weekend so i was already 1/2 way. it's also GMA week, so that was sovereignly convenient :) - anyway...i'll keep you guys posted.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

and more.

Monday, April 07, 2008

Goodbye to Skybus.

Well, it's a sad day guys. Super low rates on flights are no more, as skybus is calling it quits. I copied the announcement from their website and posted it below. Join me in a moment of appreciation for a great company that I never had the chance to use. sad.

Skybus Airlines will cease all operations effective Saturday, April 5.

Skybus struggled to overcome the combination of rising jet fuel costs and a slowing economic environment. These two issues proved to be insurmountable for a new carrier.

We deeply regret the impact this decision will have on our employees and their families, customers, vendors, suppliers, airport officials and others in the cities in which we have operated. Our financial condition is such that our Board of Directors felt it had no choice but to cease operations.

Passengers holding reservations for Skybus flights scheduled to depart on or after Saturday, April 5, 2008 should contact their credit card companies to arrange to apply for a refund. More information for customers and others will be made available on the Skybus web site ( as it becomes available.

All flights for Friday, April 4 will be completed. Passengers holding reservations on flights for Friday, April 4 should check in for their flight at a Skybus kiosk at the airport instead of the Skybus website.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

The God I Serve

So I've been going through the bible this year attempting to specifically note the character/interests/desires/aversions/etc. of the God i serve. The God who is. This love of mine. I seem to know more about my friends than I do about the lover of my soul and that was a challenging truth staring me in the face every day. still is. I'm excited about this journey - this study. I was encouraged recently at my church when a speaker came in to tackle the topic of the new atheism - he reminded us that God calls us to love him with all of our MINDS. As he said that, I felt as though there were a spotlight directly on my chair, as it was clear to me that I have focused too heavily on attempting to glorify the Lord by loving Him with my heart (which we are also called to). However, I realized that my heart has been weighed down to love without more knowledge to lead it to love more intimately. It makes so much sense to me now - to love Him with all my mind will affect how I am able to love Him with all of my heart, which will then affect how I can love Him with all of my strength - as my love will overflow from mind, to passion in heart, to strength in action. :) God is so good in every command - in every instruction given to us, His children. His creation. His.
Each nook and cranny of His Word is for our good and His glory.

I needed that reminder - I hope it encourages you too. Love Him. fully.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

more from lara's shoot

lara conner - maternity

While Garrett was in DC, Lara's mom was in town and we had a great day taking some fun photos to celebrate her pregnancy with Jackson! I can't wait to meet the little guy. I had a blast getting to catch up with this wonderful woman and we ended the day with some relaxing conversation over a tasty cupcake from the cupcake shoppe on glenwood. so fun! Here's a glimpse at her shoot. I'll post some more later.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

39. fix my computer or buy a new one (if it's more cost effective)

UPDATE! in the last goals update post i told you that i was getting my computer fixed for free which was sooooo cool - such a blessing from the Lord! But the mac store didn't have the part I needed to get it fixed in any of it's warehouses - AND they don't even make the part anymore.... so mac wrote the rep at the store at crabtree that i was working with, and told him to give me a new computer!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!
so i'm getting a new computer - i had a powerbook g4 - and i'm getting a macbook pro! OH MY GOSH!
this is more than i could have possibly imagined! God is pretty incredible - not that He had to grant me a new computer to prove it - it's just His gracious providing hand extended to me...I am so grateful.

(should come in today - hopefully i will have it by tonight)

Thursday, February 21, 2008

SONY/EMI Distribution Worldwide.

We are so blessed to be a part of this compilation cd - and even feel more blessed to be able to share the experience with a few of our friends who are fulltime as well - Jeff Johnson Band, Jonny Diaz, Carl Cartee...
Should be a fun cd. I think it will be sold everywhere cds are sold. :) May 27. Then I need you guys to call the radio stations and request Whisper by the Shelly Moore Band. That's the song that will be released on this compilation and we would love to have the majority of the american christian culture singing "You're not the God we made, You're not the God we could create..." and to consider the majesty of the God who is and the delight of hearing His voice above that of the world. :)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

goals update...

1. go full-time with music :)
NOVEMBER 23. it's official - i'm currently living off of savings and setting up the business...
2. set up the "business" for the band officially for taxes and payroll (when we have income)
in progress
3. play music at a homeless shelter
playing at a homeless feeding one sat. in raleigh - date tba
4. play music at an orphanage/childrens home
need to find one?!
5. throw a big celebration retreat to love on the women in my life and encourage each other to press on
6. paint 20 more paintings and do a gallery show
7. scan and edit all of my existing photography and do a gallery show
8. have a photograph published in a major magazine - *ideally a maternity photo in a baby magazine
9. get in shape - lose 30 lbs.
in progress
10. tour with another band
11. hire a band full-time
12. hire a booker
13. hire a marketing manager
14. hire a sound tech
15. do a tour in another country
16. open on a tour for a major artist
17. do a tour or a series of shows with daniel renstrom
18. develop a planner for artists (none have worked for me - i'd consider this complete if I found a good one that already exists)
19. make all my christmas gifts this year
all the women got handmade stuff. :) except faith - she's 5 and i figured she wanted something other than handmade jewelry.
20. get married (Lord's timing - His will - we'll see, my mom is convinced it'll happen one day - thanks mom...ha) - in sanctification process which is definitely preparing me for one wedding....maybe 2 :)
21. sell art/jewelry/photography in 5 or more boutiques/stores in different states
in progress, sold in 1 in raleigh so far
22. design a website in html
23. design a website using flash
24. get paid to design a website
in progress - still negotiating! eeee - i better learn quick! ha
25. do a series of photography prints with a unique framing style
26. get rid of half my wardrobbe
in progress - donated 2 tubs of clothes to Providence. but not 1/2way there yet.
27. sell a painting
28. visit family in sweden
29. have my own artist site to sell/display work/portfolio
in progress and
30. play guitar at my own show - i'm learning
31. make up a new recipe for a main dinner dish
32. memorize hebrews
in progress
33. memorize james
34. run a 5k (i know this may seem small but i'm not a runner - so hopefully when i finish i can set a new goal to do something longer)
35. get new health insurance
36. work out every day for at least 30 min. for 1 full month
37. upgrade to CS3 Master Collection
38. get a Canon 5D
39. fix my computer or buy a new one (if it's more cost effective)
praise God getting it fixed for free!!!
40. live in another state for more than a month
41. visit friends in california
42. figure out how to use pa-joe's letterpress
43. record an original easter/resurrection cd/could be considered christmas cd

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

sweet baby james!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

i'm back!

nashville was great - i learned so much from the meeting with the lawyer - i got to spend some time toward the very end of my trip songwriting with a couple friends, which was a complete blast! i can't wait to go back - these people are so flippin talented :)
fun times - anyway - thank you guys for your prayers! i also got to spend some time with some amazing folks who love the Lord - i saw the Lord completely use them in my life and perspective, and also me in theirs - that was cool to feel like i "fit" somewhere, even if just for a little while. It's cool when God does that. good to know you are being used - and you are where He wants you - i could be anywhere and with those gentle reminders that I am His and there is a reason He's placed me "here", I am content.
On a side note, I'll be open with you guys, I've felt such an intense need to be comforted by the Father. I've felt so broken, so ugly, so unrighteous, unworthy to come before Him, to be used in His plan - I say this knowing that if you walk with the Lord you can totally relate to this - so I am open, praying that in my weakness He will reveal His strength. It's been hard. But just tonight God reminded me of beautiful healing truth - He reminded me that He does not ask me to come pretty, or to come pure. He does not ask me to come worthy or with any righteousness I can count as my own before Him. He asks me to come repentant, not ready in my own worth, but ready to delight in the worth of His son - He asks me to come boasting in Him alone - He asks me to come at all times, delighting at all times - He does not ask me not to hurt - He says come all you who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. My Father does not ask of me what sometimes keeps me from coming before Him. Oh to delight consistently in such an amazing love! It is such a precious gift that I somehow figure out how to take for granted. But once again, here i am filled again by His mercy and grace with a contentment and satisfaction that He's allowed only by first allowing my brokenness.
What a gracious and loving King - His plan and continued work in and through my life is a mystery unfolding and yet His loving-kindness surpasses any I could ever know.

so there it is. you're updated.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

so...i'm in nashville

for part of this week i'm in nashville - i came to meet up with a lawyer out here who knows the music industry and who's going to work with me on the business set-up of the band - fun times right?'s been fun so far - i went to a show tonight at the wild horse saloon and had the best cornbread in my life - they served it with some sort of pecan spread - what in the world! it was amazing - the bands were hot hot heat/editors/louis XVI - i left before one of them got up - i think it was the editors that i didn't see - was fun - a little lonely since i was on my own (friends out here were busy) but God reminded me of His presence with me in the sweetest little ways - so that was extremely gracious of Him and loving. :) I love Him :)
i'll keep you guys posted on the rest of my trip. :)

Thursday, January 03, 2008

open the floodgates of input...

Brown w/ Red

Natural - Light Brownish Blonde?

Brown with Blonde Highlights (don't like the bangs here...granted)


I think I'm up for a change - thoughts?